Friday, June 08, 2007
Last blogged @ 2:51:00 PM

Me bitchy? I don't even realise it. Thanks for telling me. Does wanting to become fierce turns someone bitchy? How do you become fierce without being bitchy?

Sorry trombone section if I'm very bitchy during sectionals or whenever I take you all. I did not realise it until Imma told me yesterday. She say i very aunty during sectionals. I shout like aunty and very bitchy. Can't help it. Nobody listening so I have to shout. And some people are just out of control. Someone please help!!! I don't want to be bitchy!!! HELP!!!

I don't understand? Will running help? Will scolding help? Will punishing help? I don't think so. It's all about attitude. If you want to do it, then you will do.

Yesterday was my worst performance for the week. I could not endure the last round of repertoir playing with hentak and gimmick. No stamina to hentak and play. I'm also still not sure to hentak and play. I'm so obsessed with getting the right leg to hentak that I forgot the music. And when I play the music, I get mixed up my leg when hentak. I must practice my hand and leg coordination. Must work hard. Cannot slack.

It's a nice feeling to be the top, but a lousy feeling when you fall.