Tuesday, February 26, 2008
Last blogged @ 7:54:00 PM

The day started bad during CHOICES. Again. Yupp, every tuesday, I will have this problem. And this will continue for the next 5 weeks. I seriously don't get the steps. I've been doing this routine for the last 2 weeks, and I still can't get it right. And I'm still the slowest in class. I just don't get it, why others can do it and I can't. What's wrong with my hand, leg coordination. It's really below average. I not cut for dance. So, this wills eirously be my last try for dance. I had to be "sick" just now so that I could skip the class. I'm just paying the instructr $52 and not learn anything. It's not that I'm not putting in the effort, but, it just that I'm getitng sick of putting in all teh effort and not see result. This what makes me lose hope to do this. Just like doing Social Studies essay and English. I put in the effort and still fail.

This is the reason why I don't like to shout peoples mistakes in the field. But if I never shout, they will say the field is too quiet. This really make me confuse cause I don't know what to do. I have make up my mind not to shout at anyone already in the field. I'm not perfect, so why do I have to shout at people? This will make me even more malu if I shout at people and other people shout at me for being wrong. So yeah, I will let others scold my section mate for me. For now until competition, I will do my best to make myself perfect. I don't want to be labelled, the slowest SL or the SL who is the lousiest in the section. Btw, I'm not targetting at anyone. Just angry at myself for being complacent.

Sorry trombones, especially Kenneth and Hong Wan and the whole of even side. You tried to correct me, but I'm so full of pride that I don't heed all your advice. I should have just listen to all of you, or I would not be in this state. I was foolish at that time and thought that I was always correct. Sorry! :/

.: Regretting what I've done :.