Yesterday when Mr Siao said that they're going to annouunce the probational committee, I was DAMN DAMN EXCITED!!! Why? Only one reason. I won't be a DOG anymore!!! But however, after they announced the new committee, I suddenly feel very sad. Maybe it was because, now, I won't be doing any service to the band already.

I still remembered the time when I first became Trombone SL. When Mr Sumitra announced~ Trombone SL! Faizah. I was like... At that point I didn't know that I would do the shittiest job in Band. Imma told me before that being an SL was really like the dog of the band. But at that point in time, I though to myself, "being an SL is not bad wad. We get to tekan people and be a sadist. How bad can it be?" I didn't know that we will soon be a SLave.

Then outdoor preparation started:
~SLs are needed to guide the section
~SLs are needed to plan for sectionals,
~SLs are needed to plan for section competition,
~SLs are needed to ensure that all instruments are in tip top condition,
~SLs are needed to call members when they never come for band,
~SLs are needed to try new songs before the band learns it.
And the list goes on...

At that point in time, we still did our jobs well despite the hardwork. This is because we really wanted to get the "Best Display Band" title 6 times in a row. But somehow, I think I didn't do a good job as along the way, I keep thinking that being the SL of the section, you always have to be the best. And of course, I wasn't the best in the section. To make matters worse, people have to say this when I do something wrong, "Faizah! Wrong. SL!!!" At that point in time I will feel very inferior cause I have to be perfect and here I am making stupid mistakes in front of my juniors. And at the same time, I would say to myself "How did I become a bloody SL in the first place?"

When school started, being SL was even more hectic. We have to juggle schoolwork and being SL. When we reach home after school, we still have homework to do and on top of it, we still have to do formation steps and write out the music back on the manuscript. And to make things worse, after taking up alot of time drawing back the music and photocopying them, they had to change the music and all the things I have done all go to waste. Then the sec 1s came, we had to train them from scratch and make sure that they reach the standard of the main band in less than 4 months. Still, we did not complain and do our job. All for the band. We really wanted the band to win the title.

12th of April, after the result was announced, I couldn't help it but think about the past 6 months after being SL. What have I done to the section, to the band and the outcome of the competition. If only I had done my job well and not be too friendly to my section. Maybe the outcome would be different. If only I had been more sadist like the previous SLs. But I didn't have the heart to be evil to them. I believe in getting something done without punishing people. After 12th April I thought that I would step down. And so, that night, I was reflecting on the time when I was Trombone SL.

Then the worse part came. Every person in the main committee in Band got their piece of paper about them getting their service award. I was still waiting for mine. But I did't receive anything. All the SLs then came together and found out that we would not be getting any service award. It was really saddening. It really crushed my heart. I was really dissapointed. I was angry. I couldn't control the emotion. Until today, I still don't get it why the SL dosen't get the Service Award after what we have gone through for almost a year. I can just ignore the band and just don't go for the KL trip after not getting the service award, like what some of the SLs do. But because of my passion in band and still care for the band. I still make the decision to go for the KL trip.

Being the trombone SL for almost a year had taught me alot of things. Looking back, when I was a sec 1 band member, I didn't know anything. Looked at the SLs falling out to take attendance and takign Sectionals and thought that this person was nice and wanted to be a SL. The came sec 2, outdoor year, I was damn damn blur. Everything also don't know, saw all the SLs scolding and punishing their sections respectively. And the dream of becoming the SL slowly drop cause I thought that I shouldn't be too ambitious as I was very lousy. Sec 3 came, the thought of becoming the SL didn't even cross my head. I wanted to be a QM. And when they announced that I was the SL, I was kind of dissapointed. The Sec 4 came, I was still the SL and was doing my job the way I was asked to do. Thinking back, I really enjoyed being the SL.

To the new SLs (Sore Loser as you all called it), Being an SL is part of growing up in band. Being SL is not about getting Service Award, but it's about getting the section together and like what Firza say, we're like the Majors of our own Section.

OMG! I just realised how much I have wrote in this post. So to end of the post, there's this song for the SLaves and Sore Losers.

This song is about Slavery, so if you get what I mean, then good.

.: How ironic, I hate my "Bestfriend" :.